So I’ve called this earth home for twenty years now. It’s the most bittersweet thing to realize that I am done with my teen years. I tend to romanticize things, and being a teenager was no exception. I got a little sentimental a few weeks ago when I realized I would no longer be able to sing “American teen” as an American teen.
But it is a sweet milestone as well. Hard, hard years marked my days as a teen. Nineteen was by far the best and the worst simultaneously. Life is sweet and life also hurts. It’s a paradox and a blessing.
But it excites me to think that it’s likely that my 20’s will mark tremendous growth and tremendous chapters. I might meet my husband, I might move across the country, I might become a mama. “Might” completely saturates my views on my 20’s, but not in a scary or anxious way. But with joyful expectancy to see where my Father leads. I’m so happy I’m in my 20’s.
Okay, without further rambling. Here are 20 things I know to be true as of March 27, 2019.
Love is about much more than attraction. If your heart does not feel accepted, celebrated, comforted, and nourished – walk away.
It’s far, far better to be lonely on your own than in the arms of someone who is supposed to make you feel loved.
You must lock hands with sorrow and suffering before you can experience joy and peace. (read “hinds feet on high places” if you want to know more about this)
The Lord is very, very protective over His beloved. He will not leave her to her self made hell (read “mountain of spices” if you want to know more about this)
Being a dreamer is such a good thing. Don’t apologize for your big plans.
It’s hard to hear the Lord if you don’t know His voice. Be in His word and learn what He sounds like.
Vibes really do not lie.
I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again. College is about the bridesmaids, not the groom.
Healing is not linear.
Netflix is cool, but it’s a huge waste of time.
It takes experience to know what you want and what you don’t want. This goes for relationships to internships, and everything in between. Experience it all and decide what isn’t for you.
If you ever feel like you have to impress them, walk away.
Yellow still equates to happiness.
One of the most beneficial things you can do is become best friends with your Bible and journal.
You may think you’re in the darkness. You’re more likely in the shadow of the wing of protection.
Life will move on even after you think your world is ending. And then you’ll laugh and understand what they mean by “what I thought was gonna be the death of me was my saving grace.”
It’s so incredibly good to be human.
You are allowed to feel every single feeling you experience. You’re human. Don’t apologize for feelings you can’t control. But notice that you can control how you react to feelings.
Starting is hard. Starting is rewarding.
It takes time to grow into the person you want to be. Celebrate the steps as they get you there.
And that is my truth.
If you want to understand my heart behind them better or just ramble to someone, feel free to contact me. I’d love to chat.